Why ‘She Is Reclaimed’?
I’ve changed a lot since starting to blog. God used the endeavors of Crumbs & Glamour to uproot some heart issues that I wasn’t able to see. In 2017 I tackled a lot of anxiety and self-doubt. I questioned every move that I would make when I would write a post, and I compared my efforts to others. It was exhausting trying to blog. Sharing my voice and opinion to the entire internet seemed like a mountain I was unsure I would ever be confident climbing.
Let me start from the beginning.
Crumbs & Glamour blog was birthed because I was experiencing extended postpartum depression and anxiety. As I was going through the valleys of hormonal imbalance and feeling the low lows of postpartum depression, I felt God gently press on my heart to start a blog. I did not want to do it. But after experiencing that impression repeatedly, I obey; Crumbs & Glamour was born.
At first, I thought I knew what the purpose was going to be: to be a lighthearted blog that would inspire and encourage women to be themselves in a day-and-age where images of other women are always being thrown at us to compare. I tried so hard to be that type of blogger. I tried to be the lifestyle blogger and do product reviews. I absolutely hated that. And I started to see how little joy I got from writing superficially.
I don’t want to just encourage women to be awesome and to tell themselves that they are beautiful, although they are. I want to redirect every woman I come in contact with to Jesus. Superficial conversations, self-help books, self-esteem boosting blogs will only go so far, and I think we all know that. We’re left unsatisfied. We want to be completely transparent with our lives. We want to be honest about who we are, we want to remove the masks; all the while still being loved for our perfectly flawed self. And only God can provide that type of selfless love.
Tim Keller puts it perfectly:
“To be loved but not known is comforting but superficial. To be known and not loved is our greatest fear. But to be fully known and truly loved is, well, a lot like being loved by God. It is what we need more than anything. It liberates us from pretense, humbles us out of our self-righteousness, and fortifies us for any difficulty life can throw at us.”
To be fully known AND fully loved. This is what I want to write about. Romans 5:8 “But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”
Think of the thing you don’t want to think about, the thing you regret the most. In that raw and shameful moment, Christ saw you and said: “yes, her, I want her, and I’ll give up my life for her.” This is what we long for, and this is what I desire to write and speak about.
I was studying the story of Mary washing Jesus’ feet, and I was studying it the word RECLAIMED came to mind. It was like it just popped out of nowhere and was affirmed over and over. We are to live reclaimed lives. This scenario, I believe, was the Holy Spirit speaking to me. You can read my whole post about Mary being reclaimed here: Self-Discovery: Reclaiming the woman you were created to be.
From that morning on I knew God was starting something new through my writing.
Dreams were beginning to be birthed in my heart again. I had taken a journey through my experiences with postpartum depression and anxiety, and although I was very close to denying the faith, God used those heartwrenching moments and shaped my future. He used the pain of depression, anxiety, rejection, and death to shape me.
“You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.”
Where others choices, my choices, and the enemies plans, could have wrecked me – God used it for good in my life.
I want my stories of pain, to give others hope for the future. I don’t share the difficulties I have experienced so people can pity me, honestly, that is that worst thing to me. I share my heartache, in the hopes that maybe one other woman would feel encouraged and inspired to press into God.
‘She Is Reclaimed’ is a ministry that provides hope to women, to whoever wants to read or listen, that we are not marked by our past choices. No, but by the grace of God, we can live reclaimed for the purposes of God! We can be fully known and fully loved. We can live reclaimed here on earth, now.
I have new and exciting things coming to this little ministry. Like consistent contributors; other women who have been reclaimed too! And a YouTube channel! So, keep your eyes peeled for the work that I hope God does through this new ministry.
Do you dare to live fully reclaimed with me?